The day I had prayed over so many times had finally arrived. When my phone rang, I was getting out of the shower and had just missed the call but received a voicemail message. It was our OB’s office calling to tell us the results of our Panorama genetic screening test were in. Even as I began to listen to the voicemail “Hi Mrs. Gurley, this is Atrium OB. We are calling with good news from your test results…” my heart beat faster with every passing second. Good news! There’s good news! I had lifted prayer after prayer that if it were the Lord’s will that our child be healthy, we asked with all of our being that He make it so. Finally, a sigh of relief. I knew the test results were good, which meant I only needed to call the office back for one additional (oh-so-exciting) piece of information – to find out the sex of baby Gurley!
So, I dialed the number to Dustin’s office as fast as I could. He picked up quickly (thank the Lord) and I blurt out “The test results are back and they’re good and we need to call to find out what we’re having!” He stammers out a “Ok…. great! Let’s call now!” so I conferenced him in on the call to the office and we waited with bated breath as it rang, we stumbled through the phone tree, made the selection, and we finally heard our nurse answer the phone. I can remember it very well — Cathy, our fantastic OB nurse, said she was so happy our test results finally arrived (it was one day later than expected and 3 o’clock on a Friday afternoon) and that they were all normal – and she asked again if we still wanted to know what we were having. “YES!” I shrieked/squealed.
That’s when she said…
“It’s a little girl! You’re having a girl.”
And the tears came pouring down. I couldn’t help it. I didn’t know why, but in that moment all I could think of was the happiness swelling in my heart and the knowledge that in a few short months, I’d be giving birth to my best friend.
Of course, Cathy starts crying and she courteously exits the call. I think I just sat there crying with Dustin asking me “Are you ok? Are you sure you’re happy?” and of course I was. I was also probably a hormonal mess; but I couldn’t vocalize my happiness through the tears so I’m sure he had to ask twice whether I was happy or not given the amount of tears. Finally I was able to tell him yes, yes I was SO happy. And I also admitted what I hadn’t wanted to admit to myself all along: I wanted a girl. I wanted a little girl with every fiber of my being. I just couldn’t bring myself to admit that I could be selfish enough to ask God to give us not only a healthy baby, but the baby GIRL I’ve been dreaming of for so long.
Whether I was selfish or not, I do know hearing the words “It’s a girl!” were the best words I’d heard since “Will you marry me?”. Truthfully, it was one of the happiest days of my life. We have had a great time telling our friends and families that a whole new world of “pink” is fast approaching. Our little girl is the first girl born to our families since 10 years ago this fall when our sweet niece was born. That’s four boys born since 2003 between both our families and we are excited our little girl is breaking the streak. She is going to be so spoiled, sassy, and a handful just like her mom was. But I pray she also has the kindest of hearts and a beautiful, humble nature like her dad. I think every day of all the things I want to teach her, and the person I hope she becomes. But above all, I want her to KNOW the indescribable love of her Father God. We fully recognize that our Father is giving her to us on loan — she is not truly ours at all, she is HIS beautiful child. And by knowing Him, she will know True Love beyond compare. I just cannot wait for her to get here.
Counting down the days to October 24 to meet our little Gurley Girl… :)
20 Weeks and 5 days stats
Baby is the size of: Banana!
Favorite food this week: Cheeseburgers (odd, since I never liked/ate cheeseburgers before pregnancy unless I had to.)
Babymoon #2: Baltimore, MD to see my Amster! May 30-June 1
Baby’s first kick: felt on Tuesday, June 4. Feeling kicks nightly now just as I am falling asleep! :)
Maternity clothes: Always on, all the time. I try putting on pre-pregnancy tunic tops and am always surprised at the fact my belly doesn’t fit in them anymore. We are growing for sure!
Wedding rings on or off: ON! For now… getting tighter on those super hot days!